hey guys…its been so long since i’ve last updaed my blog..have been bz all these while due to work ad exams s coming round the corner….

yst have been a splendid time..my dear taught me new bass lines frm some old songd impromptu,like muse time s running out and street of uptown..n i so loving it..cuz i’ve been dying to play lgu yg berbunga2….ad ive learn it within short time..im so happy for myslf…

yst realli enjoyed dat whole hr with them…ive never felt dat way..n even the rest i can see they are loving it s much s i do…haha..will be doing it more often aftr the exam,i think so…

btw recent incident happened between us,me n dardar have reali set me thinkin and it has been a testing ground for us…..i didnt blame both of us bt i just see it s a platform for us to learn what is our limits and to see if we are mean for each other…i reali love him so much…god knows how much i love him…

well lets not b so serious…lesson is so sian…bt wad to do..it s the feelin evry time wen graduation seemed nearer….haha…juz has a tat juz now…well,i passed!!i no need to come back next wk..no needed to wear that overall again…haha…

lookin forward to meet his soon….lub u deep deep

celandine
nana hachikomi

if u r the air,
i will breath u in…

if u r my dream,
i dare not wake up n find dat its not lasting…

if u are the ring,
i will wear u till i die..e

if u r my pillow,
i’ll snuggle u tight,nt letting u go…..

if u r the arms,
im willing to fall into it countless times….

if u r here,
i’ll run crying to u….

u,i dun trust my feelings ryte now..
i juz need u ryte now….
i juz wan to cry on u till i sleep ryte now…..
i cuz need u to carresed me ryte now…..
cuz wadevr the reason,im hating wad im feelin ryte now…

i dun undstnd,y am i feelin like tis….
y i wanted to cry wen im laughing,
feelin guilt and anger when im happy and glea,
im awake crying wen im tired after a day’s at work….

u understand me most…
i juz need u…
right now….

ya i admit itz my mistake to judge the book by itz cover…n forgive me once again if i suddenly change to the languageim comfortable speaking in…

i am sorie dear for judging dat u no longer love me..im juz sometimes when it comes to girl hormone rush,i get jealous when i c other couples were so lovey dovey and stuffs…i tk epatutnye ckp cam gitu kat blog i….i know out love dat we showered to each other is way different and way unique compared to others….and im loving that every single day…

and im appologing to u here right now i says,i love u and i know u love me too frm the deepst pit frm ur heart….

syg u n syg me too…

celandine
nana

what is love?? love like was i see in us is underlying love,the sacrifices that u showered me and the indirect love that u showed me..i reali am terpukul with the love that u showed me yst..

due to my sudden call da im sick,u rushed down…u know what to do to me to make me feel better..u carried me all thw way when i couldnt walk…u chang me,u gave me ur body for support even tho u r in pain…..

i really am so touched by wad u did..u didnt show me dat u r damn afraid of wad happened to me yst…u remain calm despite u r so worried and scared….i will never forget that u rushed to give me ur support when u saw dat im weakly rushin for ur dakapan,ur hug….

i will never ever forget that very date, 23rd jan….

i will love u like i never b4….

i will wait for u…

i terlalu syg kn u…

nana hachiko mi

i dunno…im juz feelin so down lately….i dunno if he knew it or nt….

im juz reali longing for his attention and love…b4 i proceed further,appologies if i write im malay suddenli k?

ya i realli miss him…n whenever i say dat, he will go like, tdi kan da jumpe?? i mean ya,..mmg we do mit and lepak tgr, bt do we realli talk dat much bout us? wad i c s wad i writing down ryte now…we alwys go out,yes i agree bt hu bout having some quality time tgr?? do we do that alwys?? u i tk tau y am i cryin while im writing this..i juz need u…i tk tau how to put it in words,i tk tau wad my feeling says ryte now….i juz need u…..

i see arnd and i do feel da pain..i tau i ada bnyk kekurangan..im working to b perfect fr ur eyes..all da girls out there are terrific..and sapalah i?? lookin at the time flies,i miss u..nt like miss u cuz da lama tk jumpe bt i totally miss u so much…hanya dia tahu how am i feelin ryte now….

i am tryin…and i rasa penat mencuba…to get ur attention,to tell u indirectly dat im really feelin hurt after ur comments,ur gurau etc…im keepin tis all away cuz i noe it s a childish ting, bt sometimes,i still cnnt hide my true feelin…dat im hurt….

im juz sad,hurt..i need u…

ETERNALLY DAMMED!!!!!

yst as my bdae and i had da amazing pleasant sweet and touching at da same time..juz hours b4 my official bdae begins i was surprised by my guy…and his parents…was treated and it s sooo fulling..

n yst juz smll gatherin…n im loving it so much..well i gtg..eatin lunch nw

i juz received a gift frm the precious one,my dad..he juz gave me a watch, dats exactly matches with his, bt he has the male version n mine s the female 1..n im so loving it…i mean,its the 2nd time literally giving me a gift without reason…

im nt dat kind of person who receives gift alot and even rarely frm him..tis morn he literally woke me up to check my wrist size to get it matched with my size..aaw,so sweet…n i love it very da alot..haha

itz twice consecutively dat im havin sleepless nite due to migrain..do i really hav wad my both parents had, LBP?? (low blood press)…cuz i tinl i do..i dun wanna check,it fears me alot…hope i can recover faster…itz killing me, my migrain i mean…

sob sob hearted girl
nana hachikomi

haizh….im super fucking stress…itz wif regards to my fyp mates…well, nt dat we hav a fabulous and fantastic project, i tink it is juz average lor…bt people do say we hav a good project to start with..bt im fucking pissed at my mates cuz they are not putting their hands on this project together..and we left like 2 more weeks to submission…damn pissed…..

had our 19th month anniversary on da 5th and it sucks cuz we dun hav much to spend together….anniwae, to my dada

happy belated 19th month anniversary dear

i juz had a manicure, my sis treated me..my 1st time doing it…it is like turquoise colour, like the skin of avatar…(if u hav already watched it)…lol…it is super ghairah moment….well, there is always a 1st time for everytin

my sis juz told me she is gettin fr me an ipod touch fr my bdae…im super hapie la, bt im tryin nt to be super hapie, i scared dihampakan….u noe wad i mean…

well, me will b dressing up for him tmr…n its the 1st time he will be seeing me in skirt..well im trying to portray a kakak2 image u noe….

hmph…im juz scared of loosing him, i dunno why…oh tell me….sadden….

btw gtg..b4 he comes back…

adios
celandine

im having performance vry2 sooon ang okae l..feeling bt s high s the other day..i juz fnsh work and im so lookin forward till some other event dat will b having..
next wk i’ll only hav 1 working slot which is the wednesday, shud b frm 10 to 4 or 6,im nt too sure..
mimi is sitting here beside me..he s so damn gd lookin,in my opinion..n he is pissed off now..i can see that…i feel so guilty.. *sad2*
well,new yr its the 1st time i drink,n he is so pissed..well,im so sad..
gtg..he will b mad vry2 soon

i really had a fun days fr the last few daez…persormance at ben n jerry is fun…really enjoyed it lots…will be having another 1 on da 2nd..bt i scared clash wif work..nid to check it outn soon,…..damn!!

gtg…

btw world is surrounded by ED…damn..i nid my nana back!!